Thursday, June 28, 2018

Summer

Summer has hit, I have always struggled with summer. Even as a little girl we'd have to limit my time outside in order for me to stay stable. My face would flush, id get super dizzy and we'd have to get me into the cold AC asap. It got to the point if I was allowed outside it have to be in a pool. Now a days we have Doxi and Steroids to add to the mix. Which means my skin burns incredibly easily. The day before I turned 31 the All Father took me to the beach with Frigga and theres a pic of me on the beach in long sleeves and it came down to my feet and I kept my hair down that day to.

Because of these meds I can sit in the sunroom and my skin will start to burn which is so odd. Im reaching out to fellow CFers and going help?? How do you cope?? More so how do you balance the protecting your skin and staying cool at the same time. Sunscreen is not the answer. I know sporting stores sell these long sleeve summer shirts that help keep you cool which I might just need to invest in.

Then there the fact my body depletes salt. Which I mean I take a lot of salt, run my fluids, and eat salty snacks. But its still a concerns that must be looked out for. There could be a sudden drop in blood pressure, your blood counts can get low, and you almost have to take replacements. With CF theres elevated salt in your sweat. POTS also depletes salt, so I sorta stay in the house all summer.

Many people are shocked this is my worse season. But the reality is I am not just fighting my disease but now I am fighting the elements. Do I have my skin protected?? Am I cool enough?? Did I take enough salt?? Do I have enough water?? Did I pack a bag of saline?? This is when I catch up on reading because I am trapped inside so to speak. I do not know how to handle the out doors but I know how to handle coping with being stuck inside all the time.

Video games, reading, and cooking. I cook a lot. Oh gosh I got a phone call from Frigga earlier this week asking if I wanted fresh garden veggies. YES!! I made this beautiful rainbow tomato pasta, with fresh basil, and jalapeƱos. This my own recipe. Its not even a tomato sauce its just cooked fresh tomatoes. She brought me this beautiful white watermelon. Which is not as sweet but very refreshing. OK back to summer. Actually that is a trick for me to stay hydrated. Fresh summer melons.

Summer is harsh, especially down here in the south. Sometimes the best thing you can do is just stay inside and cope with the not ideal. Some times having a disease is choosing whats best for our bodies even if our mind is fighting to do the opposite. Yesterday I had to do this myself. I just wasn't feeling good and had to choose my body over my game that I was steadily working on. I got so sick that I had to pause everything and lay down. Which I guess the point of all this is. Remember to listen to your body. Remember to take care of yourself. You have one life and one body. Also its cooler at night when the sun isn't trying to burn your beaitufil skin!! The ocean is so peaceful at night to!!

But I must go I have a Rubes who is scared of a vacuum and needs an escort to the sunroom.
Love Yall
~Poppet 

Sunday, June 10, 2018

Birthday

Tomorrow I turn 31. I wasn't even supposed to see 28 but I refuse to stop fighting, I refuse to quit pushing to stay off transplant list and keep my own lungs even though some days are super tough. Why?? Because of days like today.

This morning I woke up early, got coffee going, did my treatments, and started my morning routine, today was the day Frigga and the All Father were taking me to the beach. I had the options of two different places and I chose the place I first got to spend the day with Frigga. Maybe its because it was a wonderful memory or maybe it was because I need the refresh on my soul. You see the place I went which is by the ocean is a spiritual center. Its not like formed religion. We went stopped by the front desk and the one person saw my chest and asked if I had surgery I smiled and explained no no this is my IV and I have cystic fibrosis and she immedately wanted to help. She talked to us, and I explained how Frigga had helped me over the past couple of years with different homeopathic things. So we went upstairs to meditate. Meditation is one of the things I have learned to center my self and spirit. After a mediation with 2 of my favorite people over looking over the ocean. We went to the beach.

I put my feet in salty water while I breathe in the salty air to break up the junk in my lungs. I chased a crab the size of my hand and put and itsy bitsy shell in my bag. I breathe and coughed and I got re center my soul. This past year hasn't been easy, in fact the last couple of months I would like at the All Father and asked for the ocean to reset my soul. I needed to breathe in the ocean where my heart belongs, where my soul belongs, and just reset myself. They got a pic of the moment the cold ocean water hit my feet. I got to breathe in all this ocean air and I was just at peace. That moment was peaceful and I was with people I loved.

After that we googled and googled and found a safe place to eat. It was this safe sweet little place and I got to eat this beautifully plated salad and they were wonderful with my food allergies and they were all so so kind. I was so appreciative of every one that surrounded. The sweet lady who talked to the kitchen, and the people who altered there meal to eat with me. That is love and thats why I fight for this life. Because of days like today,

Be present and just love.

Love Yall
~Poppet